@jinxypop darn good question and feelings which are very rational IMO.  Sometimes I feel the same way!

Plus you have the double whammy of first time solo nerves AND safety concerns!

Is there no one who could go with you on you're first overnights?  That's what I would recommend.  Get into a routine, with a friend/friends, and then go it alone.

@SurvivalGal  apparently goes out solo, weeks at a time, and seems to me would be a good resource.

Good luck!  And post pictures for us.

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